Back to Normality

This entire week, my focus has been entirely on guitar practice. I’m getting better at A, D, and E chords. Now on to Am, Dm, and Em. I struggle most with Dm as it requires a bit of a stretch, so that’s going to take me a few weeks to get used to.

Finally ordered Astral Chain. I didn’t purchase it earlier simply because I wasn’t in the mood. But with my fingers sore from practicing, it’s a good time to get into it. With that said, gaming is still taking a backseat. My focus is entirely on practicing guitar when I get the opportunity (i.e. not when my neighbor is here).

Sports-wise, I’m all about Formula 1 this week. Great race this morning that I’m looking forward to watching the whole race later on today.

Last week I put up my steering wheel as I desperately need space in my room. Yet lately I’ve been really in the mood to play iRacing with my VR setup. Not sure how that’s going to work. Probably best to keep it up for now as I’m not in the position to pay for circuits, a monthly fee, and additional cars to qualify for certain races.

Picked up some expansions for the War of the Ring board game. One of those expansions went out of print and was selling for $300 on eBay. Finally went back into print for $30 and I snagged it almost immediately. I’ll be setting that game up later today.

Anyway, those are my thoughts for today. Probably will go practice after this post. 🙂

Weekend Blues

Unfortunately, working overtime this weekend, making it a 50 hour work week. At least I have tomorrow and Tuesday off.

Can’t sleep that much tonight, I suppose. Been thinking a lot about what’s going on in life lately. So far everything has been focused around going to work, and coming home and playing guitar.

Put in perspective, playing guitar, makes everything I’ve done in the last few years seem rather trivial. I’m just amazed I’ve had my guitar locked up for nearly 5 years unplayed, mainly due to lack of direction in learning how to play it, and now the only thing I can think about is playing it.

What I mean about “trivial” is that in the last few years I’ve been seeking a form of escape through means of entertainment. I’ve looked at simulators, video games, board games, comic books, TV series, figure collecting, anime, etc. I’m looking for some thing. A certain zest in life.

Video games particularly are a money pit, for me they provide a temporary thrill that lasts a few weeks before I move on to the next game. I can find myself spending $100 a month on video games, easily. That’s $1200 a year. When you include other forms of entertainment, you can see why I’m just barely breaking even in the bank each month.

With music, however, I don’t feel trapped in this endless loop of constantly keeping up on new forms of entertainment to keep me from being bored. I’m actually creating something. It takes a lot of hard work, daily practice, and determination…but with the progress I’ve made in the last couple of weeks I’m actually seeing improvement. That improvement is what’s driving me to keep moving on.

It certainly helps to have the right resource, however, to keep at it. I’ve tried practicing through several different resources and now finding one that works. The first resource I tried was simply through reading a book. It’s okay for learning simple melodies like “Ode to Joy” or “He’s a Jolly Good Fellow”, but quite frankly it’s boring as fuck.

The other resource I went to was Guitar Tricks, which is not bad, but not particularly what I want either. Basically I’m going through the training and wanting more than just practicing single strings. Yet the instructor will go through something like six-string melodies, sing a simple song she made (which isn’t really my taste), and she’ll play this boring song extremely fast. I’ve been feeling really discouraged as I not only can’t keep up with her, but I’m simply just bored and not sure at what point I should give up and move to the next lesson.

The last resource is Justin Guitar, and I’ve seen a huge amount of progress in the last three days, than in the last two weeks through the other two resources. He’s started off with three chords: A-D-E, gives you training exercises, listening exercises, and plenty of real songs that utilize those chords that I can practice with. Already I’m getting better at the transitioning between those three chords, and I can play Bob Marley’s Three Little Birds rather well. That’s huge.

So yesterday I ordered one of his songbooks and a beginner course through next-day shipping. I also ordered an old-school metronome as well. I really want to support his efforts (given that he gives his training for free), and I also would like physical copies I can utilize offline for guidance and training.

I’m also playing with an acoustic now. It’s no replacement for the electric but it’s a nice beginner guitar that I can play in other rooms without lugging around a giant amp.

I think there’s a bit more of an added benefit of music than just relieving boredom. It’s somehow therapeutic. After dealing with that I’m calling “passive depression”, in which I am constantly looking for an escape from the mundane life…constantly feeling dissatisfied…bored…unmotivated. I’m actually doing something that challenges me physically, mentally, and stimulates me in such a way that no video game or TV show ever has.

With that said, what are my plans for the week?

With TV, there are only three things I want to watch: Soccer, Formula 1, and Wrestling. These three sports I’ve always enjoyed, and it makes sense to get back into something live and unpredictable other than just browsing through Netflix looking for the next show to watch.

With gaming: FIFA 19, F1 2019, and WWE2K19. Obviously because of the above…but also because I’m just simply burned out of games. I’m just not in the mood to run around, shoot things, or go through some obtuse JRPG mechanics. I just want to sit down and enjoy something that’s simply fun.

The rest of my time, I’m just devoured in learning music and guitar. I just don’t need to do anything extra at this time. And I’m okay with that.

More on Hobbies

It’s interesting when I look at the past few years at the types of hobbies I’ve been hooked on to: Flight Simulators, Racing games, Board Games, Card games, Figure Collecting, Anime, JRPGs, Strategy Games, Illustration, and now Guitar.

I’m not ashamed of it, though there are times I wish I could be invested in one hobby as it’s simply expensive to keep up with everything else.

I admit though, I ended up ordering an acoustic guitar online, but put in perspective, it’s still far cheaper than what I usually spend on video games. The acoustic is mainly because I like the classical natural sound, plus it’s more portable than the electric + amp that I have.

So, I’m just starting on my weekend (I’m off Sunday-Tuesday). What will I do for the next few days?

Anime/TV

I’ll probably watch another episode or two of Stranger Things, and I definitely would like to catch up on Demon Slayer, I hear Episode 19 is really good.

Gaming

I haven’t played Fire Emblem in the last few days. I’m instead working on the demo of Dragon Quest XI. I’d like to get the Switch version, but I already own the (inferior) PS4 version and invested about 20 hours into it. I can’t see myself playing all over again when there are so many other things I’d like to put my time toward.

I resubbed to iRacing, though not sure how much patience I’ll have for it. The multiplayer is fantastic, has great VR, and feels like a simulator. It’s just I don’t have the time to set up my wheel, my VR headset, go around practicing around a track for an hour, then qualifying, then racing. Sometimes I’d just like to jump in and play.

Being a big fan of Formula 1, I convinced myself to pick up F1 2019. Instead of getting the superior PC version (for my wheel setup) however, I picked up the PS4 version on sale. Why? Because as with the issue to iRacing…I just want to sit on the couch on my day off, play a race for 20 minutes or so, and call it a day.

Likewise I redownloaded FIFA 19 and will be playing that this weekend as well. I’d play it now, but unfortunately the TV is tied up.

Hobbies

This is the big one. I’m really engaged in guitar. It’s difficult, but feels rewarding at the same time. When I’m not gaming or watching TV, I’d like to use my time to practice every day this weekend.

Weekly Update

When you take meds every day for years. It’s easy to forget why you take them. A week off my ADHD meds and I was an unmotivated and disorganized mess. A week off my anxiety meds and I started freaking out over nothing. Back on my meds now and the best I can say is that I’m “Normal”, whatever that means :).

Anyways, back to business. After watching some K-On and Sound! Euphonium, and playing BanG Dream! on iPhone, it’s urged me to go back into music. So this week I’m focusing on music. So I dropped off my electric guitar in for maintenance yesterday. Should be back today.

I’m seriously considering picking up an acoustic when I’m there. I like the sound, the simplicity (no amp or pedals required), and I like the extra layer of difficulty in pressing down on the strings, which will only improve my electric guitar performance. It’s also pretty cheap compared to what I put in for the electric.

The downside? Well, I haven’t practiced on my electric in over five years, and nearly sold it a few months ago. Now I’m thinking of an additional guitar? Where will I put it? Will it collect dust for another five years?

At the same time, one of the reasons I’ve been discouraged from playing the electric for the last five years is primarily the setup. Purchasing it was a great idea at the time, but as I had less and less time to do stuff at home, I realized sometimes I just want to pick up something and play without adjusting knobs and dials. I also just want the simple sound of the strings, without having it amplified/modified by the amp. My tastes have also changed, I’m less into rock as I used to be and more into classic country, blues, and folk-style music.

So it makes sense to get an acoustic. I wouldn’t dare trade in my electric however. It’s a beautiful instrument, and even the guy at the guitar shop suggested that when I nearly sold it a few months ago, it would have been a great loss since it’s a well-made Fender Stratocaster.

They also brought about taking lessons. This sounds interesting. Having to take lessons is much more motivating for me than just saying “Hmm, should I play a YouTube training video today? Nah I’ll play Star Wars Battlefront II instead”.

I’ve also been weighing in getting a keyboard for years now. But that’s primarily an issue of space. I literally have no place to put it. An acoustic guitar is portable, a keyboard…not so much. So that’s a thought for another day.

So there you have it, another hobby to add to the list of hobbies I already have. It’s an ADD thing (so says my doctor), but at this stage in my life, I learned not to fight it, but just live with it.

Which brings me to another point. Balancing hobbies and activities during my time off. While I was unmedicated yesterday I ran into overwhelming anxiety issues with having too many things to do and not sure where to even start.

Last week, I was determined to focus on one activity at a time, and this week it’s somewhat the same. However, I’m not going to be as strict in my approach, since it makes my hobbies becomes a chore.

Still, I like my lists. Here’s what I’d like to do this week:


TV/Anime

  • K-ON! – Finished up Sound! Euphonium last week and now on K-On. I’m only on episode 4, but I’m enjoying it. It’s a good comedy, though a bit too Shoujo for my tastes. I’m still interested in it though.
  • Demon Slayer: Kimitsu no Yaiba – I love the art direction in this, the music, and the storyline so far. It can be a bit dark however, so it’s not something I can watch entirely in one sitting.
  • Stranger Things – I’d like to at least watch one episode this week. Enjoying Season 3 so far.
  • Formula 1: Drive to Survive – This is one I’ve been watching off and on Netflix. I plan to finish this in the next day or two. A great behind-the-scenes look at the last season of Formula 1 and brings the drivers and the teams behind the drivers into a greater perspective that you don’t see during the race.

Gaming

  • Fire Emblem: Three Houses (Switch) – I’m about 12 hours into it. I try to put in at least an hour each day. Basically run through the school grounds and put in a battle or two to level up my class. But it’s not really something I can play for hours on end in one sitting.
  • Deemo (iOS)Picked this up again. They added a lot of new songs and features since I last played. Going to try to get through all the new songs at least once.
  • Rise of the Tomb Raider (PS4)- I nearly forgot about this game until this morning while trying to decide on what to play next on the PS4. When I played last month, I was about 1/3 into the game, but I’m enjoying it a lot so far.
  • iRacing (PC)- Since I’ve been watching Formula 1 on Netflix, it’s got me thinking about doing some online racing. I had a lot of fun with this last year, and it feels more like a serious simulation than a simple game. Works great on my wheel and VR headset too…though I’ll need to do some reconfiguring on my VR Headset which I’m too lazy to do at the moment.

Hobbies

  • Practice on my guitar – Whether or not I get an acoustic, I’ll be practicing guitar this week. Already queued up some videos on YouTube to practice along with.
  • Study Japanese -I’d like to spend maybe an hour this week catching up on my vocab list.

Also to add, visited Victoria, BC last week. Had a lot of fun there. It was nice to take a break from sitting around the house all day and to clear my mind up a bit. Though next year I might settle for somewhere a bit closer to home.

Mid-Week Update

Just finished both seasons of Sound! Euphonium. Overall it was a good lighthearted anime. I’m not sure what to watch next, unfortunately. I’m still not quite in the mood for anything violent. I’m thinking Does Rascal Not Dream of Bunny Girl Sempai as the next anime to watch? I also need to finish Bakemonogatari one of these days.

Played Fire Emblem Three Houses yesterday. Finally switched over Edelgard’s class to Lord. Doing a bit of grinding as well, since Bernadetta’s level was way down to Level 3, when the average for the rest of my group is around Level 6-7.

As far as grinding in FE: Three Houses, I’m not sure how much to do. It seems like I can just keep battling over and over again. The average difficulty of these battles is Level 7, with one battle at Level 9. I’m not sure if I should just average out everyone to Level 9 or to Level 7, and I don’t want them too severely gimped before the main battle at the end of the month. It’s just replaying the same maps over and over again is boring and tiresome.

Picked up a new dedicated headset for the PS4. While I haven’t necessarily needed a new headset, I’ve found a few instances where I’d like to work in a group and I’m left spending five minutes looking around for the cheap earpiece that came with the PS4 that’s uncomfortable and falls out of my ear. I ended up getting the Sony PS4 Gold Wireless Headset, which sounds great (uses 7.1 audio) and provides most of the functionality I need in a headset. It’s not as great as my Arctis 7 on PC, but for the PS4, it’s exactly what I need.

Sadly, I haven’t really found an opportunity to use it yet. Been playing Star Wars Battlefront II and everyone is mostly silent. I’d like to see if my friends can get together for Destiny 2 sometime so I can use it.

Planning on a trip to Victoria, BC this weekend. I’m planning on having some relaxation time in a hotel over the weekend. I’ll have to look at hotel prices and things to do out there. I’ll most likely bring my Switch and iPad, at the very least so I can play some FE while on the Ferry or in the Hotel.

Ever get that feeling where it’s like “Okay, I’m done with that…now what?” Well it’s 9AM, I’m finishing up with the blog entry for the morning, and I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of the day. I’m considering maybe getting some Flight Sim hours in, but I really don’t want to spend most of my morning downloading addons, reading manuals, or working on flight plans. Truck Simulator sounds like fun too, but sometimes I feel like if I really wanted to drive, I’d actually go in my real car and drive.

Probably, at the very least, I’ll set up Mansions of Madness this morning and just work from there.

My Staycation

This week I’m on vacation. I originally planned on travelling to Europe, but plans changed and I’ll be just sitting at home instead (will travel to San Diego later this fall though).

No major plans this week, it’s going to be a staycation really. I might do some local travelling over the weekend, however. There’s a lot to do in the Pacific Northwest and I don’t want to be couped up in the house the whole week.

For the days I’m home, what am I going to do?

I haven’t quite decided yet. Ideally I’d like to focus on a few things instead of getting myself overwhelmed with the amount of things I can do. One of the issues with modern technology is the overwhelming amount of choice available. Just look at the anime selections alone on Netflix, Crunchyroll, and Hulu. I can spend every day of an entire year devoted to watching anime and I still won’t be able to finish everything.

Then you add TV, movies, video games, tabletop games, and daily responsibilities. I find myself constantly overwhelmed to the point of inactivity. Decision Paralysis.

I find self-limitation the best way (so far) to solve this. Basically what I’m doing is creating a list, and sticking with that list until either the activity is complete, or I find myself just far too frustrated/bored with the activity to move on. I’ve also divided my games by console and genre.

So here’s my list so far. I hope to stick with it through my vacation at home. We’ll see at the end of the week how far along I am, and what my plans are for the following week.


Entertainment

Sound! Euphonium (響け!ユーフォニアム) (Crunchyroll/VRV) – A lighthearted Shoujo anime focused around some girls practicing in a high school band. I finished Season 1 just a couple days ago. Currently on Episode 3 of Season 2. I’d like to finish this and move on to something else, preferably lighthearted (not in the mood for Shounen stuff lately). I’m thinking Rascal Does Not Dream of Bunny Girl Senpai or Violet Evergarden.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Hulu) – I’d like to continue with this show. It gives me a lot of 90’s nostalgia and I really enjoy it. Though the amount of silly filler episodes (such as the episode of the praying mantis teacher) makes me want to watch something else instead, perhaps Veronica Mars? Vikings? This may change.

The Last Wish (Book/Kindle) – Rereading this, and working through the entire Witcher series before the Netflix series comes out this Fall.

Video Games

BanG Dream! Girls Band Party(バンドリ)(iOS) – This is the only mobile game I’m playing at the moment. I lost my save last year and couldn’t bare the frustration of reinstalling this game and start again from scratch. They introduced cloud saving, fortunately, and after a week of playing I’m about the level of where I was before I lost all my save data. Fun game, and I’m just enjoying the VN elements to the game. I’ve spent over two hours alone on just Chapter 0 of Poppin’ Party’s origins.

Fire Emblem: Three Houses (Switch) – I originally wasn’t too crazy about the scenario compared to FE Awakening and FE Fates, but it’s growing on me. I’m playing through the storyline of the Black Eagles (I had to go with Edelgard!). It has a very Persona-like feel to it, which works surprisingly well with the Fire Emblem formula, and you really feel a connection to everyone in your party.

Total War: Three Kingdoms (PC) – The only strategy game that I tell myself each day “I really want to play”, yet don’t actually do. Not that it’s a bad game, it’s just that it’s a time sink. I can find myself easily watching 2-3 hours go by, and sometimes I want to do other things.

Star Wars: Battlefront II (PS4) – This is my multiplayer choice for this week. I just picked this up for $7. Not sure what the state of the game is, but if it’s not good, I might go back to Magic the Gathering Arena. It’s a quick pick-up-and-play multiplayer game so I don’t anticipate spending too much time on it.

Ace Attorney: Trials and Tribulations (3DS) – I should probably put at least one handheld game on my list. My 3DS has been collecting dust for months (the Switch has been taking over instead), yet there are still many games I’d like to play for it. I’m going to try to finally finish AA: Trials and Tribulations before moving on to other games.

Hobbies

Arkham Horror: The Card Game – Not sure where I’m going to go with this game. I have it all set up, but had no motivation in the last week to actually play it. I might swap it out to try out Mansions of Madness instead, so this might actually change.

LEGO Apollo 11 Lunar Lander – I got the base done, just need to work on the lander itself. Unfortunately my work area is taken by my board game setup.


That’s about it. I’m going to try to knock out as much as I can from this list, but things can and will change through the week. I’m eager to see how far I’ve progressed for next weeks blog update!

Happy Sunday

Hey,

It seems like no matter what day, it’s not a good day to play Magic in person. The local game shop hosts events Fridays and Sundays. Yet Friday’s are difficult because I am just coming out of a 10-hour workday. Sundays are difficult because it’s my special day to relax, and the entry fee is twice as much ($30).

Ended up not attending today’s event and just opted to pick up some Magic cards/accessories.

So far played my white deck online and haven’t won a single game. I have yet to play my black deck though. Probably will start constructing a blue deck over the next few weeks.

As far as other tabletop games? Not sure yet. Considering playing Arkham Horrors: The Card Game or Lord of the Rings: The Card Game. Just not sure what I’m in the mood for, Lovecraftian Horror or Fantasy? I picked up some official gamemats for these two games so it’ll add a bit to the flavor (as opposed to playing on a MTG playmat.

Gone back to playing some iOS games. I’m currently playing Azur Lane, Girls Frontline, and BanG Dream! I’m watching the BanG Dream anime but I’m a bit disappointed there’s no mention of the other bands. I’m also watching a bit of JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure. I haven’t picked up on any of this summer’s anime just yet though. I might just watch Dr Stone or something good.

No plans as far as console/PC gaming for the week. I’m playing a little bit of Fire Emblem Three Houses, and I’m considering getting back into Monster Hunter World or maybe even God Eater 3.

Nothing much else this week. I’ll most likely just be chilling on the couch and on my desk for the next few days until I get back to work on Wednesday.